I am lonely. I am hurt. I am ugly. I am destroyed. I am broken. I am hurtful. I am hungry.
I am a joy-giver. I am frustrating. I am laughter. I make light of dark situations. I am irreverent. I am insightful. I am intuitive. I am heartless. I am thoughtful. I am a contradiction. (Aren’t we all?)
I am a mother. I am a friend. I am loyal. I am sassy. I am opinionated. I am determined. I am whimsical. I am easily distracted. I am a doormat. I am a diva.
I am sexy. I am the girl next door. I am hopeless. I am bright. I am gifted. I am blessed. I am talented. I am persistent. I am giving. I am strong.
Have you ever listened to the things you tell yourself? I think this is very important and something understated. Because we don’t believe what others tell us. We only believe it when it matches our own beliefs. I’m beginning to ask myself, “Why?”
“Why” am I unhappy? “Why” do I feel blessed? “Why” do I feel hopeless? “Why” do I feel sexy?
What exactly am I believing? And what am I doing to myself and others based on these beliefs?
I want to teach my daughter how to forgive and not to hold grudges, but how can I teach that when I’m unable to follow it? You teach by example. By actions. My actions are pretty ugly right now.
So what do you do? How do you get out of it?
Ready for this? It’s counter-intuitive.
What, you say? Crazy, you say? Yes. And you’ll feel so much better for it after. I promise. Give your time, give love, give what you can to the people you have and see if it doesn’t turn your thinking around.
Do it willingly. If it’s not done willingly take back that piece of shit because that’s not a gift. It’s a guilt-token. Something you give because you feel you should, not because you want to.
Give it shot. Then tell me what you think down below!