A letter to the girls that mocked and made fun of me, “I don’t do it for you.”

Dear Girls,

I would call you ladies, but I believe you demonstrated yesterday that you have yet to achieve that level of maturity.

Though I may be in my late 20’s – and you see me as “old” – I can still be hurt.

This is not a piece of hate-mail to you. Oh no… This is much bigger. This is me owning that I am capable of being hurt. I am vulnerable, and when people make fun of me for pursuing my passions I turn red in the face. Not with anger, but with shame. Although I really have nothing to be ashamed of, I still turn red and become embarrassed.

I feel so sorry that you have also been shamed, and don’t feel safe enough to be vulnerable. For shaming others to cover our vulnerability is something that is taught, and demonstrated consistently by others.

Although your passive aggressive teasing shamed me, that won’t stop me. I don’t do it for you.

I don’t play the piano at the hospital for you. I do it for those who can’t see past their pain, or for the families that are hoping for their loved one to wake up. I do it so that maybe the music will [hopefully] connect, and communicate, what their words cannot.

Imagine if I were to stop because you felt uncomfortable with what I was doing. Would you take responsibility when someone asks, “Where is that girl that played the piano?”  Or would you laugh in their face and say, “She was annoying. Good riddance.”

I am an awkward person at best, and my own awkwardness tends to make those who are insecure feel worse. Unintentionally, I know I made you feel uncomfortable with yourself. Because if you weren’t, you wouldn’t have felt the need to tease me.

I don’t do it for you, and a little criticism and teasing aren’t going to overwhelm my desire to connect with others in a meaningful way.

So I hope you got your laughs, and I hope that one day you’ll find something as equally rewarding to be passionate about. So that when you’re teased and criticized, you can offer grace and say, “I don’t do it for you.”

Best Regards,



3 responses to “A letter to the girls that mocked and made fun of me, “I don’t do it for you.”

  1. People often mock what they cannot do themselves, never let this bother you and instead relish in the fact that you are much more talented than they as no one is mocking them. Every once in awhile this would happen to me while I was performing. I would go out of my way to ignore those ridiculing me and attempt to perform with even more vigor, knowing that some one or there watching WAS appreciating what I was doing and that this performance was for them. Hugs – WD

  2. just remember that you’re only ever mocked by someone who can’t actually do what it is you’re doing when they’re mocking you. as it would happen in the life of a performer such as myself I had this occur quite often. I would just close my eyes and remember that my performance was not for them it was for the people who did appreciate it and I would continue on with much more Vigor than before. I am 100 percent certain that someone who heard you was not only appreciative of your efforts but also thankful for the distraction you provided during their time at the hospital. and even though I wasn’t present to actually hear you I’m sure it was delightful and I’m proud of you for doing it, keep up the good work!

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )


Connecting to %s